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A three card draw: The Sun, Temperance, and the Nine of Pentacles :)

Lately I've been going through a lot of thought about my spirituality, about magic, and my connection to everything. It's a strange mix of things. I have a new job that's been really demanding, and I haven't really been able to do much besides wait for the new apartment that Josh and I will be moving into later this month. I've been feeling particularly disconnected as of late, and I think I know part of the reason for it. Right now it feels like everything is just coasting. The job is going well, me and Josh are doing well, and life is pretty much fine. Rewind to nine months ago, and everything was not fine. I had been laid off, I was questioning my faith, but I needed stability. At that time I was the most connected to... energy? my higher self? the "universe"? I'm not sure what the correct wording is, but I Needed stability. I needed a job with health insurance. A full time job that could get me out of my parents house and into a place of my own. At that point Josh wasn't even sure that he'd be able to move in for another year or so due to bills and his obligation to his friend/current roommate. I find that when I need things, when I have a need that must be met, I put out my will a lot more effectively. And thus, nine months later in an state where the unemployment rate is 10.1%, and the part time position that my job is hiring for has received more that 450 applications, I am employed,  I have health insurance, I am moving into an apartment with Josh, and I have more money in my savings account that I have ever had in my life. Without that need though I've been feeling disconnected. I haven't really forced anything, but as I said earlier, it feels like I'm coasting, waiting for something. I'm finally understanding why I was so in touch with everything when I first started out. I Needed to find out about everything. I Called and Pushed  and Wished until I finally got my ass handed to me! It was wonderful and terrible and I learned a lot about myself and the world. I feel like I'm almost in an enforced rest at the moment until I get out on my own, and now that it's almost over I'm understanding that I really, really needed it. My life seems to be piecing itself together into some semblance of order, and it's a good thing.

I completely forgot about updating! Yeah.. no job for Paul, but I'm now working at my new job of finding a new job :P Up at 8, start working on stuff at 9, getting my resume put together correctly, yelling at my college about taking it's sweet time in graduating me. It is a good thing to be busy!

On the way home, I got a warning and a ticket. The warning for tag lights that were out, and the ticket for driving after curfew. Apparently when you get your license back from suspension, you get the sucky one first. That is all.

Ok, so if you’ve ever tried to get something you’ve written published, you know how hard it is. This is especially true of niche genres such as gay fiction. So I have this friend, see, and he’s written this book called “Vintage: A Ghost Story”. It’s out in small press, so most places won’t have it, and they most certainly won’t be doing any advertising for it. So GO BUY IT! You can read reviews and purchase the book through the link below, or you can get a bookstore to order it, thus making it much more likely to actually be shelved! The ISBN is 1560236310. So like I said, buy it! And spread the word!

http://www.amazon.com/Vintage-Ghost-Story-Steve-Berman/dp/1560236310
http://www.edgephiladelphia.com/index.php?ch=entertainment&sc=books&sc2=reviews&sc3=&id=6131
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